I can haz banana milk? D:

So I've sent in my applications, just have to make the payment and write one more essay and I'm done! So the A's turned out pretty okay, some teacher's were a little disappointed, but I thought it was a fair grade considering how much time I actually spent studying versus how much time I spent falling alseep, thinking about DBSK and watching pointless documentaries during cram period. Of course I feel a little indignant about my econs grade, because I thought I could have tried harder but things don't always turn out how you expect them to, and in the end, I guess that's alright.(Thank heavens for the bell curve btw, because under normal circumstances, the essays I handed in across all 3 subjects probably wouldn't have gotten what I received)

Anyways, my violin exam is in 5 days D: And I am not ready! I sound decent when I practise normally or play in front of my teacher, but once I start playing with the piano, something in me halts and I sound bloody awful! It's so ridiculous, in my mind I know what i'm supposed to be doing, but seriously, in my head I'm thinking, okay piano at this part, but for some reason, I'll be playing really heavy and loud D:<


*Edit: O: I just found out that Jay only used to original chorus, but WROTE EVERYTHING ELSE HIMSELF. Oh wow, I'm very impressed. I always knew he was a good rapper, but this is surprising even! What can't this boy do? He B-boys AMAZING WELL(think his singing and rapping X1000), sings, raps and writes.

I don't know if anyone remembers or even read the entry about Jay a few weeks old. I haven't said much on the issue since then, but so much has happened that I didn't want to comment on. I don't even want to think about that group anymore. Jay deserves to much better than they could ever give him.
When news that he had uploaded a video of himself singing on YT for the fans, I don't know how many people just wept like crazy. It's already been almost 7 months, and I don't know how to describe how sorely missed Jay has been. He's one of the few last decent boys out there. I know he's been portrayed as a rebel and all that by some unscrupulous producers(not naming names, but...you know) but I've never heard more nice things about this boy from REAL people out there. How he's always polite and responsible and walks the old ladies and girls in his neighbourhood home because he's worried about them, how he's always fillial and kind and respectful. And I believe it all, because out of that whole group, he was always the most sincere, most hardworking. While the fans had to overlook the airs and behaviour of some other members, making excuses for them, for Jay, there was never any need.
Jay Park, if you ever read this because you are bored in Seattle and are googling your name, I just want you to know that we will never stop waiting for you, because we know that you're going to make it huge, and it'll be soon. You're too big for Korea, you have too much talent to be placed in some group. You're going to succeed beyond your wildest dreams and take your mom shopping for nice things like you've always wanted to. I know this because good things happen to good people, and you're one of the best.
I don't know how to explain how it felt to see Jay singing and smiling after all these months. I know friends who have bawled and wept their eyes out at the video, and I can't deny that I'm one of them. Jay, you're a very special boy and I wish you all the best, please please don't forget we are here, waiting for you, because it doesn't matter if you're in a group or not, you'll always be our leadja.

And as a sidenote: Dayum, did you see when he lifted up his shirt?! I was wondering whether he had lost his famed chocolate abs after those 7 months, but I guess not huh. Taylor body? I'd say Jay Park's one beats that hands down.

Ps. In case you guys want a nice, clean summary on the whole situation http://www.dmwmedia.com/blog/%5Buser%5D/myspace-facebook-youtube-twitter-and-story-jay-park-aka-jaebeom-park Its a good, non-biased perspective mostly because its written by a reporter outside the kpop world.