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http://bellalikesblacksheep.blogspot.com

I don't know, I just feel more comfortable at that url. See you teacups there ♥

WG

Watching all the Two Different Tears lives really make me miss Sunmi so much. I really do wish her all the best and hope she's happy studying but I hope she knows that she'll always be part of the Wonder Girls to us.
She's extremely underrated, everyone likes her but I wouldn't say she has the biggest fanbase, such a pity really. It's generally acknowledged that she's an all-rounder; good voice, pretty face, can dance. And the longer she's gone, the more I regret not paying more attention to her when she was still performing.
She's honestly my favourite voice in WG, even though Ye Eun admittedly has the strongest one. There's just a very interesting quality about Sunmi's voice.
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She starts singing arounnd 1:00
And I love that she's ALWAYS consistent during lives.



And heres Two Different Tears. Wonder Girls never disappoint(though to be honest I was expecting something a little catchier) And here we see them with the temporary member Hyelim from China.
Sidenote: I LOVE LOVE LOVE how there are SO MANY female fans, shows how likeably WG are and don't just flash their thighs like some other group to get male fans *cough*
Also, I absolutely adore how the fans are including Sunmi's name in the chant.
Hyelim, what can I say about her. I feel so bad everytime I think it, and this thought usually never crosses my mind, but whenever her face flashes across the screen, I think "Oh gosh, can't you get some work done on your face?"

It's not like all the girls in K-pop look extremely pretty(quite the opposite in fact, more plain faces than you'd imagine) but they all at least don't make you cringe when you look at the screen. Plus the rest of WG is rather attractive(plus Yoobin who is SUPER GORGEOUS) and putting Hyerim right beside them doesn't help at all.

See, rest of WG:

And then suddenly:


Just ain't working for me. She looks so terribly awkward and she looks seriously unattractive. And I know, blah blah so superficial, but come on, she's supposed to be an idol. Even the supposed atypical looking "non-pretty" idols in k-pop are somehow freaking hot.
For example, CL. Not your usual pretty girl, and YG has come up to say so many times its not about looks, and they're right, CL is so bloody talented and has so much charisma that it's hard to find a sexier 19 year old.

It's just not working. I've been trying to like her because the WG seems to(and that means she can't be bad right?) but I'm completely not feeling her. Maybe next time

A day late but...

Happy SHINEEVERSARY!

Ah, my first love. Even though DBSK has long eaten my soul, I still remember these 5 bright-eyed boys that lured me over to all things k-pop. I remember still reading Popseoul for their Plastic Fantastic articles, noticing SHINee and thinking "What's the deal, none of them are cute. I'll never understand this kpop rubbish."
But things change and well, the rest is kind of history. (On a side note, I remember looking at DBSK and thinking, "Wtf, biggest stars in Asia my ass. None of them are particularly goodlooking. Especially THOSE TWO." [So sorry to Chun and Changmin, who I now think are so goodlooking that if they were to stand in front of me, I might collapse)] Seriously, what crack was I smoking? I remember during my initial stages of SHINee love, WX and I were talking about how DBSK and she said something about how their concept doesn't appeal to her because its too mature and I distinctively remember promising her that I would never like DBSK. WTF? What was wrong with me?)

Anyways, as much as I love the direction SHINee is heading in, I really really miss thhe Noona Neomu Yeppo days. One of the best songs of 2008 and really one of the cutest concepts. It really suited them and aurgh, would it kill SM if they didn't make SHInee grow up so fast?



I miss them like this so much ;_;
I hope their comeback will be as awesome.

My heart has been in shreds since last august. Not because of the lawsuit, but because I'm so worried about how the boys are feeling about it. I spend whole hours feeling useless about this because really, what can we do?
I feel especially worried about Jaejoong. He has been drinking so much more now that the lawsuit has started and it just tears me up. Getting drunk alone and not even being able to get home by himself? And Mastuura's latest tweet about how Jaejoong's cellphone wallpaper is all 5 of them... I can't even imagine how horrible he feels. He goes crazy and paranoid, texting them non-stop on their ten measly off days a year, so I don't know how he's surviving right now. Please, please, if I could I would get on my knees and beg SM to please let them see each other. Can't they tell how much it hurts all 5 of them? Even if they are pissed off, I'm sure they must have some degree of fondness for these boys that they raised?
Can't they tell how hollow Changmin's cheeks have gotten without his umma to feed him? Can't they tell how they don't smile as much anymore?
I really want to find Junsu and tell him its okay, to tell all three of them not to feel guilty about the whole thing(I don't know about yoosu, but poor Jaejoong is quite obviously dying from it) and that we'll wait for them no matter how long.

This is an angry post. Do not read if uncomfortable.

I don't like drama. I have a tendency to make friends with people who don't create unnecessary problems in a friendship, whether intentionally or otherwise, but I like it that way. The first 16 years of my life were fantastic like that. And then I don't know what changed(well I guess, the people I was associating with changed) but suddenly every few months some issue will pop up. Its so frustrating. I'm just so sick of it all, I thought leaving that hell-hole would mean leaving all this bullshit behind but apparently not.

Why are some people so fucking petty? I tolerate your bullshit, and in all honesty, I was never interested in any sort of friendship with you in the first place, so why are you going around acting like you HAVE to put up with me. You aren't doing me any favours, I can tell you that. First time this happened, I thought, "Well this is fucking stupid." But whatever, I forgive, I move on, I overlook these sort of petty things that you seem to adore clinging onto. You apologised, you near GROVELLED and I said forget it, we can still be friends.

Now 5 months on, I'm regretting that decision. I don't need you insulting me(I don't care if its unknowingly, I'm a pretty hard person to offend, but day in day out you trample on EVERYTHING I believe in and talk down to me like I'm an 11 year old girl with my hair still in pigtails) in practically every conversation, but then get ridiculously offended if I even say something (NOT EVEN NEGATIVE MIND YOU) about you in a joking manner. Fuck you and your bullshit, tell my friends how 'I constantly insult you' for all I care, you should see how they roll their eyes knowingly because they know that I definitely do not do that.

Take your sorry excuse for a friendship and shove it up your ass. I'm purging you from my life. And if you haven't noticed, not ONCE in these 5 months have I ever started a conversation with you, or even participated in one enthusiastically. Don't make it seem like you are doing me a favour talking to me, because honestly, I talk to you because I feel bad that you have no friends.

Don't tell me I don't know how a friendship works, I am friends with some of the best people I know and would go through hell for them. You're the one that constantly bemoans how no one cares about you, so work it out, am I the one that doesn't know how to cultivate a friendship or is it you?

I don't need you, or your drama. You are by far the pettiest person I know. I hope I never see you again.

I can haz banana milk? D:

So I've sent in my applications, just have to make the payment and write one more essay and I'm done! So the A's turned out pretty okay, some teacher's were a little disappointed, but I thought it was a fair grade considering how much time I actually spent studying versus how much time I spent falling alseep, thinking about DBSK and watching pointless documentaries during cram period. Of course I feel a little indignant about my econs grade, because I thought I could have tried harder but things don't always turn out how you expect them to, and in the end, I guess that's alright.(Thank heavens for the bell curve btw, because under normal circumstances, the essays I handed in across all 3 subjects probably wouldn't have gotten what I received)

Anyways, my violin exam is in 5 days D: And I am not ready! I sound decent when I practise normally or play in front of my teacher, but once I start playing with the piano, something in me halts and I sound bloody awful! It's so ridiculous, in my mind I know what i'm supposed to be doing, but seriously, in my head I'm thinking, okay piano at this part, but for some reason, I'll be playing really heavy and loud D:<


*Edit: O: I just found out that Jay only used to original chorus, but WROTE EVERYTHING ELSE HIMSELF. Oh wow, I'm very impressed. I always knew he was a good rapper, but this is surprising even! What can't this boy do? He B-boys AMAZING WELL(think his singing and rapping X1000), sings, raps and writes.

I don't know if anyone remembers or even read the entry about Jay a few weeks old. I haven't said much on the issue since then, but so much has happened that I didn't want to comment on. I don't even want to think about that group anymore. Jay deserves to much better than they could ever give him.
When news that he had uploaded a video of himself singing on YT for the fans, I don't know how many people just wept like crazy. It's already been almost 7 months, and I don't know how to describe how sorely missed Jay has been. He's one of the few last decent boys out there. I know he's been portrayed as a rebel and all that by some unscrupulous producers(not naming names, but...you know) but I've never heard more nice things about this boy from REAL people out there. How he's always polite and responsible and walks the old ladies and girls in his neighbourhood home because he's worried about them, how he's always fillial and kind and respectful. And I believe it all, because out of that whole group, he was always the most sincere, most hardworking. While the fans had to overlook the airs and behaviour of some other members, making excuses for them, for Jay, there was never any need.
Jay Park, if you ever read this because you are bored in Seattle and are googling your name, I just want you to know that we will never stop waiting for you, because we know that you're going to make it huge, and it'll be soon. You're too big for Korea, you have too much talent to be placed in some group. You're going to succeed beyond your wildest dreams and take your mom shopping for nice things like you've always wanted to. I know this because good things happen to good people, and you're one of the best.
I don't know how to explain how it felt to see Jay singing and smiling after all these months. I know friends who have bawled and wept their eyes out at the video, and I can't deny that I'm one of them. Jay, you're a very special boy and I wish you all the best, please please don't forget we are here, waiting for you, because it doesn't matter if you're in a group or not, you'll always be our leadja.

And as a sidenote: Dayum, did you see when he lifted up his shirt?! I was wondering whether he had lost his famed chocolate abs after those 7 months, but I guess not huh. Taylor body? I'd say Jay Park's one beats that hands down.

Ps. In case you guys want a nice, clean summary on the whole situation http://www.dmwmedia.com/blog/%5Buser%5D/myspace-facebook-youtube-twitter-and-story-jay-park-aka-jaebeom-park Its a good, non-biased perspective mostly because its written by a reporter outside the kpop world.

LMAO

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, so this gif is pretty old(circa 2005 judging from the Hi Ya Ya outfit) But its been cracking me up for a long while now.

I don't know why Yoochun even thought it was a good idea, Cassies were notorious for being bat-shit insane fans for a reason bb.(Though now they've grown up and matured and are suing SM and all D'aawwwww ♥) But really, if *I* was in the Guiness book of world records for having the world's biggest fanclub, no way in hell would I have pulled that stunt.



"OH HAIII GUUUUYYSSS!~ Oh, HELL NAW FUC-"
What you guys have just witnessed is a narrow escape from death/world's biggest gang rape.
Not a good idea Chunnie, not a good idea.

In other news, I'm trying my hardest not to think about you-know-what tomorrow, so far so good. No panic attacks, no tears. (Apart from my melodramatic[I realised this only on hindsight] text to my teacher saying "Hey Ms Choo, you don't have to be too sad about my results tomorrow okay? I'll think of something else to do" and she replied with a "WALAO CAN YOU NOT ME BE SO PESSIMISTIC. Tomorrow then say. " I love her sooo much ♥)
Been eating lots of pocky and ramyeon, watching Casablanca, Breakfast At Tiffany's and Sound of Music repeatedly for the past week. Its helping. TIME FOR SOME YUNJAE THERAPY.
Think of me kindly tmr at 2.30pm ): Love you all.

This hurts so bad. I know this might seem ridiculous, but no its not "just a band". Jay is a real person and it just hurts so much more everytime I remember that the only reason he was trying so hard in the first place was because he wanted his mom to be able to go shopping and for him to be able support his family.
I don't know what supposed "bigger mistake" he did(that the company refuses to release any info on) that makes his return impossible, but either they have the shittiest PR team in the world or they are just doing a really bad job of covering their own asses up.

I know that supporting the other 6 is the supposedly correct way to go about this, but how do they expect the hottests to do this when it means supporting JYPE and endorsing their mistreatment of Jaebom?

I've read the statement from the Khottests and it makes more sense to me than JYPE's bullshit letter does. I don't know if we're being played or not, but all I know now is that I could never love 2pm as much as I used to, no matter how hard I may try.

Jay, you will never be forgotten. Please come back soon.(YG needs to sign this boy, he's too hardcore for JYPE anyways, and I'm sure they would do a better job of protecting their artists)

Meanwhile, the shit has hit the fan, and barely a day into this and the official fancount has dropped 14% and honestly, I can't say I'm upset about that(though I do feel bad for the other 6 ): )

Happy birthday Leader-ssi!

This is the closest to perfection Man has ever gotten.
May you always be healthy, happy and surrounded by the one's you love, doing what you love. I don't know how you find it in you to be so selfless, kind and strong, you deserve all the happiness in the world. Thank you for shouldering all the burdens and looking after each member better than you treat yourself, thank you over and over. These are trying times, but I have faith in your strength and in your love and that DBSK will always be DBSK.
(Also, this may sound a little crazy, but honestly, please don't break Jaejoong's heart)

Happy Birthday Princess ♥

Oh Jae, oh Jae...what about you is there not to wax lyrical about? We know you don't like it when people call you beautiful, because according to you, men should be handsome. But thats what you are, beautiful inside and out.

So life couldn't be peachier, I really could get used to this bumming thing. But I'm down to my last 15 dollars and I'm not even talking about excluding emergency money anymore D:This is getting rather tragic. I should stop rejecting job/tuition offers but I don't want those ): I know this is going to sound typically frivolous of me but I really want to wear and apron to work but not have to waitress. And nothing is going to come between me and my plan, kinda.

2010 has been good to me so far, no unnecessary drama(no more people from you know where!~), no early mornings and more good hair days than bad. I've been planning to get more reading done but in between mandatory DBSK online stalking time and going out, I've yet to even make it past Chapter 5 of the novel I'm hanging onto.


Okay I tried, I tried making this post about me, but really, all I want to do is post pictures of Yunho's manboobs and laugh at them D: I can't help it, I've been wanting to do this all day.

Normally manboobs gross me out and are generally thought of unpleasantly and with much secondhand embarrassment, but those lumps of fat on Yunho's chest are quite different. I swear if someone were to set up a fancafe dedicated to Yunho's boobage it would get quite a decent number of fans. I remember talking to some girl on LJ about them and she exclaimed "I LOVE THE FUCKING FAT OUT OF YUNHO'S BOOBS" and believe me when I say she doesn't stand alone.
I don't know whether its because he's so endearingly self-conscious about his manboobs or because the rest of his body could rival that of a greek god, but Yunho's manboobs amuse me to no end.(I SWEAR I'M NOT CRAZY, it might seem a little out of it but I assure you that the rest of the fandom is equally fascinated by this)




Oh Yunho, you are so prection, don't ever change.